It's Not Game Over! It's Game-CHANGE!
In just a few weeks, it will be my last "first day" of university, and I will embark on the very long journey from my bed to my desk. This wasn't in my plan...
I was set. 18 years old and I had it all figured out. I was moving off the Island 3 days after I graduated (which I did), travel for the summer (which I also did), start nursing school, graduate and become a trauma nurse, with the potential of continuing on to medical school.
Solid. In fact, I turned down a $30,000 scholarship because I was convinced I knew what I wanted and how I wanted it and where I wanted it.
Except that did NOT happen. Not even close.
I hated the university I started. It wasn’t a good fit. I ended up leaving with 1/8th of a nursing degree. That door closed, but I was convinced I still wanted to be a nurse so when I left the university I started at another university. I clung to this dream of being a nurse.
Their program was only open to residents of the province, which I was not. Door closed. I tried becoming a resident and I actually could not. Door closed. I kept fighting to be a nurse, and I fought for a long time to bring it to life. Slam, slam, slam. I applied every which way in every possible form and every single time, I hit a road block.
It seemed like it was game over. I hung up my stethoscope and decided I would accept the fact that nursing wasn’t going to transpire.
I could have been bitter, and I was for a bit, until I realized it wasn’t game over. It was game-CHANGE time. I thought about what I valued, my strengths, the things that set my soul on fire.
It wasn’t nursing after all, it was social work, hiding in the background, screaming my name while I pursued something that wasn’t meant to be. And now, as I enter my last first day of social work school, I can’t help but think: I can’t see myself anywhere else; this is my niche.
Here’s to walking across that stage and saying, “DID IT.” There were no roadblocks with this degree. It fell into place. It’s been life-giving and I am ready to enter this field.
So when every single doors slams in your face, it’s not game over. It’s game change. And when you pivot into a hobby/career/interest that aligns with your values, beliefs, and lifestyle, it’s beautiful.
It’s so, so beautiful.
Allow the door to close.